Some days I don’t want to. Yes, that was the end of that sentence. I don’t want to. I don’t want to clean, wash, pickup, cook, listen to whining, break up fights, listen to their problems, I don’t want to mom. Let me explain, I love my littles, I love being a mom but somedays I don’t want to mom. Of course, if I don’t know one else will so I do it, slower and a little less cheery than normal, but I manage. This is a real thing for me, and when I have talked to other moms, it is real for them too. So, let's allow our selves to feel overwhelmed, tired, stressed, confused, conflicted, mad, scared, jealous (I am jealous he can have adult conversations all day, I know petty but true). We should allow ourselves to feel these emotions without feeling guilty because we are human. Humans have emotions and just because our job is keeping smaller crazier crankier humans alive does not make it less of a job and does not make those emotions less valid. We cover up our feeling, in my opinion, because of mom guilt (which is worse than Catholic guilt, or at least in my experience it is). Let’s feel these emotions, embrace these emotions and let’s learn from them. Let’s learn how to find a little joy in what is normally a hair pulling our experience. Let’s learn to use it as a teaching moment and teach our tiny humans that they are also allowed to have emotions, but they may not dwell in them. Let’s learn how to find a way not to dwell on our emotions. Acknowledge the emotion, embrace it but not dwell on it. There will be hard days, probably way harder than this, but there will be so many more wonderful, easy, sunny, laughter-filled days that this one day of not doing it will not even matter! Stay strong mama, and you are not alone!
I can't be alone in this
A Fit(ish) Mama